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　　楠木小樓燭火透亮，新納的姨娘小桃坐在床畔，因不知外面出了什麼事，又是新嫁娘，就在屋中獨坐了許久。她覺得很久，自下午一台藍色小轎將她送進這並不陌生的小院開始，時間就流逝的緩慢起來，慢到令人心焦。甚至莫名其妙地歪在床上睡著了，醒來，夫君仍舊不在身旁。
　　小桃不敢亂動，即使覺得身體僵硬，仍舊不敢有一絲動彈，垂著頸子，看著自己粉色手絹繼續苦等。又不知過了多久，院子裡傳來了此時倍感親切的輪椅軲轆聲，小桃輕噓了一口氣，腦中繃緊的那根神經鬆弛下來，女兒家嫁人的羞怯心情又重新湧上心頭，粉腮微紅。
　　沈清軒上得樓來，在外室揮退了婢女們，自己操縱著輪椅靠近，而後推開了廂房的木門。呈現在眼前的便是梳了婦人雲髻，正羞羞怯怯低了頭的新婦，側身坐在床畔，燭火映著那小小耳廓，一片通紅。
　　
　　沈清軒望著那身影，眼中眸色變幻著，高深莫測。待他靠近過去時，已經是慣常的微笑，不顯山不露水，除了微笑所展露的溫和，再無別的任何情緒摻雜其中，沒有人能從他的微笑裡看出什麼。連他自己也不能。
　　沈清軒停在小桃面前，兩人面對著面，小桃羞怯萬分，將頭埋的更深，全然一副新嫁娘的模樣，只知羞怯，不知其他。沈清軒伸出手，托起那圓潤下頜，讓那粉頸抬起來，手中軟膩，鼻息間傳來陣陣幽香，平日裡不曾細看的丫頭，此時穿起綾羅綢緞，戴了珠花流蘇，倒也陌生幾分。加上那一抹嬌羞，沈清軒心裡想著，這也算得上是如花美眷了。
　　放在平時，沈清軒也是不忍心為難她。怎麼說都是自己看著長大的丫頭。沈清軒記得她跟在娘親身後剛來自己屋中的那一天，怯生生的模樣，躲在娘親身後，一雙大眼睛忽閃忽閃，像只受驚的小鹿兒。不知不覺，當年那個小丫頭，已經可以為人妻母了。不得不讓人感歎光陰易逝。
　　
　　小桃不知他接下來要做什麼，只覺心頭一陣亂跳，仿佛揣了只活潑潑的小兔子在懷裡，又是羞臊又是期待，嫁人本是女兒家一生中的大事，況且夫君又是知根知底的，雖是身體不好，卻一表人才，家道又殷實，雖是做小，心裡也是歡喜的，日久天長積累的欽慕與不可告人的心意，一夕成真。小桃就想著，日後要對他好些，更好些。侍奉枕畔，端茶倒水，自不在話下。日後姐姐進了門，也要對姐姐好，不與她爭風吃醋，像二姨娘對沈母一樣畢恭畢敬。只求安穩，闔家幸福。
　　小桃是這樣想的，一如當年的二姨娘初進沈家，同樣是做小，同樣的心情。
　　
　　可沈清軒並不作這樣想法，他只托著小桃下頜，將那粉腮摩挲了片刻，就收了手。而後，他做了一個手勢。
　　這個手勢小桃無比熟悉，放在以往，甚至會覺得親切。因為這意味著主家對她的憐惜。而這一刻，小桃看到他的手勢，只覺心神恍惚，不明白為何。
　　那手勢的意思是：你早些歇息。
　　木軲轆的聲音又響起來，沈清軒做完手勢，轉身進了書房。留了小桃一人坐在床畔，久久不能回神，又不知多久，她眼眶逐漸通紅，墜下淚滴。
　　一夜如此，第二日晌午，小桃以姨娘的身份被移至別院，隨了兩名丫鬟和嬸母，當夜仍舊獨守空閨。第三夜……第四夜，夜夜如是。
　　
　　沈府中南邊庭院本來就屬沈清軒，套院的格局，主院便是那楠木小樓，院中門庭九轉十八彎，自然也有專置妾室的別院，小桃就住了別院。
　　丫鬟們嘴碎，悄悄討論此事，很快便在府內傳得風生水起，都說大少爺不喜歡小桃，小桃枉攀了高枝。這些私底下的議論不知怎麼流傳到外面，外面的人三教九流，各色都有，嘴裡也就粗俗了些，閒談時又生出新猜測，認為沈大少爺患有“隱疾”，所以才讓那嬌美妾兒守了身。這流言又從外傳回沈府，一時議論這事的人多不勝舉。終於有一天，驚動了沈母。
　　沈母與夜半時分來到兒子房中，見他床上孤枕單衾，臉上也毫無行了周公之禮的喜慶模樣，心中疑竇落實了，只是這事又不好張口，就默不作聲地找了郎中來。
　　沈清軒先時還狐疑找郎中來作甚，後來就明白了。只好搖頭，寫了行字，說我好得很。將人打發了，一個人閉門在屋中生悶氣。怎麼能不生氣呢？他除了膝蓋以下的部分被徹底凍死不能動彈外，別處都好好的，卻被人以為身患“隱疾”。呸！
　　
　　晚上一人躺在床上，生了一天悶氣的沈清軒從枕下取出那顆珠子來擺弄，滴溜溜的圓珠叫他用指尖撥弄著在床頭滾來滾去，滾了十幾個圈，沈清軒才拿在手裡，用指甲叩了叩珠子，道：“這圓滾滾的小東西，無孔無眼，收在荷包丟了豈不讓別人占了便宜？你串根線又能麻煩到哪去。”
　　他對珠子說話，珠子哪裡會理他，一人一珠寂寞相守了盞茶功夫，沈清軒居然消了氣，心情莫名轉好。熄了燈，重新將珠子塞進枕下，枕著睡了。
　　第二日醒來，在床上洗漱完了，沈清軒習慣性地揭開枕頭拿珠子，欲放進荷包裡貼身帶著。枕頭剛一揭開，他便愣住了。
　　只見那原本無孔無眼的紅色珠子躺在那處，身上卻被一根金縷橫穿而過。
　　沈清軒臉上就露出了笑，那笑意從挽起的唇角一直蔓延到黑亮眼底。這笑意保持了一天。
　　
　　當夜，睡在榻上沈清軒又用指甲叩了叩胸前紅珠，道：“我聽許明世說他去找你了，可是真的？要是真的，你也該知道你手中那兩件寶物，叫我許了他。只是我當時為了圓場，才撒了謊說東西在我這。你若不想給，來日不給他就是。反正修煉成果本身就是空口，全憑我一句話，賴就賴了。”
　　說完他便等那紅珠動靜，等了又等，紅珠仍是紅珠，呆頭呆腦地在他胸前趴著，一動不動。
　　沈清軒等的困了，一不小心睡著了。
　　第二日又醒，還未睜開眼便察覺不對，鼻尖涼涼的，隱約有抹不同尋常的寒意。沈清軒猛地睜開眼，只見臉側枕上擺了一件白色衣裳，衣裳上立著一個小小的紫銅色小鼎。
　　沈清軒下意識地低頭朝自己胸前去看，那顆紅珠隨著他的動作滑了一下，滾到鎖骨的位置。
　　冰涼涼的。
　　沈清軒卻覺得自己熱了起來，仿佛身體裡燃起了一道火焰，將他胸腔裡那顆維持生命不停跳動的東西，燒得熱烈無比。
　　閉了閉眼，沈清軒聽見自己心裡喊了一聲：伊墨。
　　伊墨。
　　那無聲喊出的兩個字，蘊著讓他自己都心動的深情。
　　
　　自此，每夜沈清軒都會找些事來，說想看那傳說中的孤本典籍，據說只有宮中才有收藏，說得神往了，能自言自語很久才迷糊著睡去。第二日睜開眼，那書就出現在枕畔，靜靜放著。
　　打開書頁，裡面眉腳處皆有筆墨字跡，顯是歷來閱書的人邊看邊做的注釋，沈清軒翻了翻，果然在其中找到了一行周正的字跡。是伊墨看時所做，沈清軒沒有任何質疑，立刻就確定了。
　　看書時，就有了些不一樣的情意蘊含在裡面，看得認真，又纏綿。
　　這樣又過了近半個月，沈清軒盤算著，將冷落了一個月的妾室明日召來，圓了房事。
　　冷了一個月，也夠了。再怎麼說，她也是他的妾，來日也是他孩兒的娘親。
　　
　　這日晚上，沈清軒又躺在床上，拿著珠子，將自己的盤算說了，說到明晚行房，沈清軒遲疑了片刻，才道：“也不知同女子歡愉起來是何滋味。”就這方面來說，他真是新手無疑。雖然身體也知道雲雨，但前次是由伊墨主導的整場進程，他只需躺著就行。而明晚卻是由他來主導，他卻又身體殘缺著，這樣想著，心裡就有了陰鬱。
　　第二日醒來，沈清軒習慣的摸向枕邊，一入手就是紙張的沙沙聲，睜開眼細看過去，沈清軒臉上瞬間通紅，忙揭開床幃做賊般打量了一下四周，才將那書冊畫圖全部攏進了被窩裡。
　　這一次伊墨送來的全是春宮。各種姿勢，有圖有字，注解細緻。就是黃毛小兒看了，也能心領神會。
　　沈清軒閉在屋中，不允人打擾，關了自己一天。整整一天，他的臉都是紅的。
　　原因無他，那圖中但凡輕巧省力的，無需用腿力只需腰力的動作，都被伊墨用紅筆圈了出來，還用他那周正端莊的字體，做了小提示。例如：此勢可行。之類。
　　
　　當晚行房。
　　小桃真正成了新婦，臉頰暈紅著，神態裡有了一股婦人的風姿綽約。
　　沈清軒陪了她一晚，第二天卻又回到自己小樓，獨自入睡。小桃便知道，這個人的心思，原來不在自己身上。
　　一個多月後，小桃早飯時突然捂著嘴退了出去，身形雖依舊窈窕，沈清軒卻從她的背影上看到了痕跡。
　　想到那細柔身子裡有了自己骨血，沈清軒心中油然而生一股情緒，這情緒甚至衝破了他陰鬱冷酷的內裡，綻露在他臉上，那是一種要做父親的祥和喜悅。小桃掩著唇再回來時，便發現坐在桌旁，那始終寧靜淡遠的夫君正沖著自己微笑。雖然自己夫君天天都在笑，小桃卻突然意識到，這才是真正的笑容，笑起來時，暖如春風，仿佛一夜江南。
　　這笑容一半是給她的，一半是給她腹中那尚未有任何形狀顯露的孩子。
　　
　　沈家即將有第一個孫輩，即使是偏房生養的，大家也高興的很，對小桃的照顧比先前就豐盛許多。小桃被冷淡時聽了不少閒言碎語，心中有些不平，後來腹中有胎，又得了不少關照，這不平也就慢慢淡去了。她的夫君仍是對她淡漠的很，自從有孕就不讓她再伺候左右，一天也就飯桌上見一見，到了晚間仍是各自安歇。小桃對此也不怨懟，心裡明白夫君的心思不在自己身上，何況她只是個小，有了孩子將來就有了指靠。就算不得寵愛，將來姐姐進門，也不怕被欺辱。就這樣，小桃臉上也祥和下來，有了將為人母的溫善慈祥。
　　沈清軒心中高興了多日，最明顯的表現就是他晚上對珠子嘀咕的時間明顯少了，而是披著衣裳坐在燭火旁想著給自己孩子取名的事，也不知是男孩女孩，就備了一男一女兩個名字。等他把名字在心中敲定了，才想起來，有幾日沒同伊墨說話了——雖然是他對珠子說。但他知道伊墨能聽見。因為那珠子是伊墨的血凝成的。
　　這晚便拿了珠子，又說起兒女的事來，寫了自己想好的名字，寫在紙上，舉起來給胸前那珠子看。那臉上雖仍是淡淡，神采卻飛揚著，歡喜的溢於言表。直至半夜才睡。
　　第二天還沒睜開眼，沈清軒迷迷糊糊地探手朝枕邊摸去。那裡會有伊墨的東西，他知道。
　　手卻撲了個空。只有錦緞的光滑，而無其它。
　　沈清軒猶不信，立即睜開眼，在床上翻找起來，翻來覆去折騰了一身汗，連被褥都滑落到地上了都一無所獲。
　　“……居然都不送禮麼？”沈清軒叩了叩珠子，似笑非笑的戲謔道：“真是小氣。”
　　那珠子從來沒有回應過，今次也不例外。
　　沈清軒解了鎖扣將珠子捧在掌心裡，細細驗看，毫無異常，仍是紅紅血色，濃郁發亮。看了半晌，重新掛在胸口貼膚戴好，沈清軒哼哼一聲：“莫不是這個時侯想起來拈酸吃醋了？”這話說的他自己都發笑，與伊墨的關係，他真是說不清楚，卻也知道伊墨決計不會吃他的醋的。那人，是要修煉成仙的。是要六根清淨的。
　　是修煉千年，無欲無情的。這些他已經漸漸知道了。
　　
　　以前以為伊墨厭惡自己，歡好都似施恩，事實上，沈清軒也從生辰之日收到的脂膏上想的明白，伊墨是不討厭與自己歡好的，否則不會將那東西做生辰禮物送來，所以，伊墨不討厭自己，甚至頗有好感。
　　否則也不會總是在他提出要求時應允，雖然他提的要求對蛇妖來說都是微不足道的小事，比如睡到夜裡突然說第二天早上想吃東城的小餛飩，當然，這僅僅是好感，只能說對他這個人印象不壞。根本就與私情無關，自然也就沒有喜歡。
　　沈清軒甚至想問問伊墨，他活千年有沒有傾心過誰。
　　當然，這樣的話他不會這個時候問，有些問題，只有在恰當的時機提出來才能得到答覆。這點道理，沈清軒從小就懂。
　　
　　這一次，伊墨為什麼會突然毫無預兆的消失呢？
　　沈清軒以為，自己醒來時會在枕邊看到長命鎖之類的東西呢。
　　整著衣物，他心頭卻沒由來一陣亂跳。
　　許是有什麼事耽擱了吧？沈清軒想著，自己開解，很快恢復如常。只是心頭飄上了陰霾，似乎要出什麼事一樣，感覺不祥。
　　是不是伊墨出事了？這個念頭一出現就怎麼也遏制不住，沈清軒深吸一口氣，腦中也不知轉過了多少念頭。俱是牽掛與擔憂。
　　沈清軒帶著僕從回山中別院，突然的決定讓沈家上下大為驚異，沈母勸他留下，因為小桃有孕，不方便坐車在山路上顛簸。沈清軒卻決然要走，且將小桃留下，並不帶她。
　　沒有人能改變他的決定，下午，沈清軒就回到了山中。
　　許明世也說那山是個好去處，要同來。
　　沈清軒擔心伊墨出事，想著許明世好歹有些道行，若真有事，還能幫的上忙，就帶了他。
　　
　　一班人馬回到這寂靜多日的別院，頓時熱鬧起來。
　　沈清軒不露端倪，回院後像以往一樣，使人將園中花草修剪一番，擦了院中擺飾上的雨水洇漬，又安頓好許明世的住處，緊接著又吃了晚飯。
　　直到夜裡，才得閒坐在屋中，攥著那紅珠，在燭火旁孤坐。
　　也不知坐了多久，他等的人都沒來，沈清軒覺得四肢一點一點寒下去，再無別的念想，只恍惚著對那顆紅珠低聲道：“若有事，就來找我。我身無所長，只有一副皮囊，若有需要，還可替你擋些刀劍。”話說到此，心中已是一片淒然，完全無法想像失去伊墨的日子。
　　想都不敢想，腦中念頭只要稍微飄過去，胸口頓時像是利器刺過一樣，又是冷，又是痛，連骨髓都仿佛都蝕空。
　　沈清軒體會到這點，自己也明白，這情根是決計斬不掉的了。以他現今這般絕情寡義、工于心計的黑心腸，還肯為別人去生去死，也不知那情根，什麼時候就這麼根深蒂固了。
　　
　　“伊墨。”
　　沈清軒喊了一聲，對著空氣。
　　“早些來吧，”他說。低下頭，複又抬起，千言萬語最後只匯了四個字，喃喃著，仿佛自言自語，輕聲道：
　　“我想你了。”
　　我想你了。沈清軒說。
　　再沒有別的情話說出口，只這四個字，仿佛耗盡他一生愛戀。

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The candlelight in the nanmu building was bright. Xiaotao, the newly-wed concubine, sat beside the bed. She didn’t know what happened outside, and she was a new bride, so she sat alone in the room for a long time. She felt that it was a long time. Since a blue sedan brought her to this familiar courtyard in the afternoon, time has passed slowly, so slowly that it made her anxious. She even fell asleep on the bed for no apparent reason. When she woke up, her husband was still not by her side.

Xiao Tao didn’t dare to move, even though she felt her body was stiff, she still didn’t dare to move at all, she hung her neck, looked at her pink handkerchief and continued to wait. After an unknown amount of time, the sound of a wheelchair came from the yard, which was very familiar at this time. Xiao Tao sighed lightly, and the tense nerves in her brain relaxed. The shy feeling of a girl getting married came back to her heart, and her cheeks flushed slightly .

Shen Qingxuan went upstairs, dismissed the maids in the outer room , maneuvered his wheelchair closer, and then pushed open the wooden door of the wing room. What appeared before him was the bride with her hair combed into a woman’s bun, shyly lowering her head , sitting sideways on the bed, the candlelight reflecting her small ears, which were all red.

Shen Qingxuan looked at the figure, his eyes changing color , unfathomable. When he approached, he was already smiling as usual, not revealing anything. Apart from the gentleness revealed by his smile, there was no other emotion mixed in it. No one could tell anything from his smile, not even himself.

Shen Qingxuan stopped in front of Xiaotao, and the two of them were face to face. Xiaotao was extremely shy and buried her head deeper, looking like a newlywed, only shy and ignorant. Shen Qingxuan stretched out his hand, lifted up the round jaw, and lifted up the pink neck . His hands were soft and tender, and there was a faint fragrance in his nose. The girl who he had never looked at carefully on weekdays was wearing silk and satin, and wearing pearl flowers and tassels. She looked a little strange. With that touch of shyness, Shen Qingxuan thought to himself that this could be regarded as a beautiful woman .

Normally, Shen Qingxuan would not have the heart to embarrass her. After all, she was the girl he had watched grow up. Shen Qingxuan remembered the day when she followed her mother to his room. She was timid, hiding behind her mother, with her big eyes flickering like a frightened little deer. Unknowingly, the little girl back then has become a wife and mother. One cannot help but sigh that time flies.

Xiao Tao didn’t know what he was going to do next. She felt her heart beating wildly, as if she had a lively little rabbit in her arms. She was shy and expectant. Getting married is a big event in a girl’s life. Moreover, her husband knows her inside out. Although he is in poor health, he is handsome and has a wealthy family. Although she is a mistress, she is happy in her heart. The admiration and secret feelings accumulated over a long period of time came true overnight . Xiao Tao thought that she would treat him better in the future. Serving him by his pillow and serving him tea and water were of course not a problem. When her elder sister comes into the family, she must treat her well and not be jealous of her. She should be as respectful as the second aunt to Shen’s mother. She only wants a stable and happy family.

Xiao Tao thought this way, just like when the second aunt first entered the Shen family, she was also a concubine and had the same feelings.

But Shen Qingxuan didn’t think so. He just held Xiaotao’s chin and rubbed her cheeks for a while before withdrawing his hand. Then, he made a gesture.

Xiao Tao was very familiar with this gesture. In the past, she would even feel close to it because it meant that the master family had pity on her. But at this moment, when Xiao Tao saw his gesture, she felt dazed and didn’t understand why.

The gesture means: You should rest early.

The sound of the wooden wheel rang again. Shen Qingxuan made a gesture and turned back to the study. Xiao Tao was left sitting alone by the bed, unable to come back to her senses for a long time. After an unknown period of time, her eyes gradually turned red and tears fell.

One night like this, at noon the next day, Xiao Tao was moved to another courtyard as a concubine, along with two maids and her aunt, and stayed alone in her empty room that night . The third night… the fourth night, and every night was like this.

The southern courtyard of the Shen Mansion originally belonged to Shen Qingxuan. It had a courtyard layout, with the small nanmu building as the main courtyard . The courtyard had many twists and turns, and naturally there was also a separate courtyard for concubines, so Xiaotao lived in the separate courtyard.

The maids were gossiping and discussing this matter quietly. Soon, the rumor spread all over the mansion. They all said that the eldest master did not like Xiao Tao and that Xiao Tao had married into a wealthy family in vain. Somehow, these private discussions spread outside. People from all walks of life outside were vulgar and came up with new speculations during their gossips. They believed that the eldest master Shen had a “hidden disease" and that was why he let the beautiful concubine remain a virgin. The rumor spread back to the Shen mansion, and there were too many people discussing this matter. Finally, one day, Shen’s mother was alarmed.

Mother Shen came to her son’s room in the middle of the night and saw him lying alone on the bed with a single quilt and no sign of joy on his face. Her doubts were confirmed, but she couldn’t bring herself to speak up about the matter, so she silently went to find a doctor .

Shen Qingxuan was initially suspicious of why he had asked the doctor to come , but later he understood. He could only shake his head and write a line saying that he was fine. He sent the doctor away and shut himself in the room to sulk. How could he not be angry? Except for the part below his knees that was completely frozen and unable to move, everything else was fine, but people thought he had a “hidden illness". Bah!

Lying alone in bed at night, Shen Qingxuan, who had been sulking all day, took out the bead from under his pillow and fiddled with it. He used his fingertips to fiddle with the round bead, rolling it around on the bedside. After rolling it a dozen times, Shen Qingxuan took it in his hand and tapped the bead with his fingernails, saying, “This round little thing has no holes or eyes. If I put it in my purse and throw it away, won’t others take advantage of it? How much trouble can it take to string it with a string?"

He spoke to the bead, but the bead ignored him. After a cup of tea , Shen Qingxuan calmed down and felt better. He turned off the light , put the bead under his pillow again, and fell asleep.

After waking up the next day and washing up in bed, Shen Qingxuan habitually opened the pillow to take out the beads, intending to put them in his pouch and carry them with him. As soon as he opened the pillow , he was stunned.

I saw the red bead without a hole or eye lying there, but a golden thread pierced through it.

Shen Qingxuan smiled, and the smile spread from the corners of his lips to his dark eyes. This smile lasted all day.

That night, while sleeping on the couch , Shen Qingxuan tapped the red beads on his chest with his fingernails and said, “I heard Xu Mingshi say that he went to find you, is it true? If it is true, you should also know that I gave him the two treasures in your hand. It was just that I lied and said that the things were with me in order to save face. If you don’t want to give them, just don’t give them to him in the future. Anyway, the results of cultivation are empty words, and it all depends on my words, so you can deny it if you want."

After saying this, he waited for the red bead to move. He waited and waited, but the red bead was still the red bead, lying stupidly on his chest, not moving at all.

Shen Qingxuan was so sleepy from waiting that he accidentally fell asleep.

The next day, he woke up again. Before he opened his eyes , he realized something was wrong. The tip of his nose was cold , and there was a hint of unusual chill. Shen Qingxuan opened his eyes suddenly, and saw a white dress on the pillow beside his face, and a small copper tripod stood on the dress.

Shen Qingxuan subconsciously lowered his head to look at his chest. The red bead slid with his movement and rolled to his collarbone.

ice cold .

Shen Qingxuan felt himself getting hot, as if a fire had ignited in his body, burning the thing in his chest that was keeping his life beating with great heat.

After closing his eyes, Shen Qingxuan heard himself calling out in his heart: Yi Mo.

Yimo.

The two words he shouted silently contained such deep affection that even he himself was moved.

From then on, Shen Qingxuan would find something to say every night, saying that he wanted to read the legendary rare book, which was said to be only collected in the palace. He was so fascinated that he could talk to himself for a long time before falling asleep. When he opened his eyes the next day, the book appeared beside his pillow, quietly placed there.

Opening the book, there were handwritings at the bottom of the page, which were obviously notes made by people who had read the book before. Shen Qingxuan flipped through it and found a line of neat handwriting. It was written by Yi Mo when he was reading it. Shen Qingxuan did not have any doubts and confirmed it immediately.

When I read the book, there are some different emotions contained in it, and I read it seriously and lingeringly.

Nearly another half a month passed like this, and Shen Qingxuan planned to call his concubine, who had been neglected for a month, back tomorrow to have sex with him.

A month of cold was enough. After all, she was still his concubine and would be the mother of his child in the future.

That night, Shen Qingxuan was lying on the bed again, holding the beads, and talking about his plan. When it came to having sex tomorrow night, Shen Qingxuan hesitated for a moment before saying, “I don’t know what it feels like to have sex with a woman." In this respect, he was undoubtedly a novice. Although his body knew how to have sex, the last time it was Yi Mo who led the whole process, and he only had to lie down. But tomorrow night he would be the one to lead, and he was physically disabled . Thinking of this, he felt gloomy in his heart.

When he woke up the next day, Shen Qingxuan reached for the pillow as usual. As soon as he touched it, he heard the rustling sound of papers. He opened his eyes and looked over carefully. Shen Qingxuan’s face turned red instantly. He hurriedly lifted the bed curtain and looked around like a thief before he put all the books and drawings under the quilt.

This time, Yi Mo sent all kinds of pornographic works. There were pictures and texts of various poses, and the annotations were detailed. Even a yellow-haired child could understand what they meant.

Shen Qingxuan locked himself in his room, not allowing anyone to disturb him, and locked himself up for a whole day. His face was red all day.

The reason is simple. In the picture, all the light and energy-saving movements that require only waist strength and do not require leg strength were circled by Yi Mo with a red pen, and he also gave a small hint in his neat and dignified handwriting. For example: This posture is feasible. And so on.

They had sex that night.

Xiao Tao truly became a bride, her cheeks flushed and her demeanor revealed the graceful charm of a woman.

Shen Qingxuan stayed with her for one night, but the next day he returned to his own small building and slept alone. Xiao Tao knew that this man’s mind was not on her.

More than a month later, Xiao Tao suddenly covered her mouth and walked out during breakfast . Although her figure was still slim, Shen Qingxuan saw traces from her back.

Thinking of his own flesh and blood in that delicate body, Shen Qingxuan felt a surge of emotion in his heart, which even broke through his gloomy and cold heart and bloomed on his face. It was a peaceful joy of being a father. When Xiaotao came back with her lips covered , she found that her husband, who was always calm and distant, was sitting at the table and smiling at her. Although her husband smiled every day, Xiaotao suddenly realized that this was a real smile. When he smiled, it was as warm as a spring breeze, as if he had been to the south of the Yangtze River overnight.

This smile was half for her and half for the child in her belly that had not yet taken any shape.

The Shen family is about to have their first grandchild. Even though the child is born to a concubine, everyone is very happy and takes much better care of Xiao Tao than before. When Xiao Tao was ignored, she heard a lot of gossip and felt a little unfair. Later, when she was pregnant, she received a lot of care and the unfairness gradually faded away. Her husband was still very indifferent to her. Since she got pregnant, he did not let her serve him. They only saw each other once a day at the dinner table, and they went to bed separately at night. Xiao Tao did not complain about this. She knew in her heart that her husband’s mind was not on her. Besides, she was just a child. If she had a child, she would have someone to rely on in the future. Even if she was not favored, she would not be afraid of being bullied when her sister came into the family in the future. In this way, Xiao Tao’s face became peaceful, with the warmth and kindness of a mother.

Shen Qingxuan was happy for many days. The most obvious sign was that he spent less time mumbling to the beads at night. Instead, he sat by the candlelight with his clothes on, thinking about naming his child. He didn’t know whether it was a boy or a girl, so he prepared two names, one for a boy and one for a girl. When he decided on the names in his mind, he remembered that he hadn’t spoken to Yi Mo for a few days – although he spoke to the beads. But he knew Yi Mo could hear it. Because the beads were made of Yi Mo’s blood.

That night, he took the beads and talked about his children again. He wrote down the names he had thought of on a piece of paper and held it up to show the beads on his chest. Although his face was still pale, his spirits were high and his joy was beyond words. He didn’t fall asleep until midnight.

The next day , before he opened his eyes , Shen Qingxuan reached out to touch the pillow in a daze. He knew that Yi Mo’s things would be there.

But his hand touched nothing. There was only the smoothness of brocade, nothing else.

Shen Qingxuan still didn’t believe it, so he immediately opened his eyes and started searching on the bed. He tossed and turned until he was sweating all over, and even the bedding slipped to the ground, but he still found nothing.

“…You don’t even want to give me a gift?" Shen Qingxuan tapped the beads and said jokingly, “How stingy."

The bead had never responded before, and this time was no exception.

Shen Qingxuan unfastened the lock and held the bead in his palm. He examined it carefully. There was nothing unusual. It was still red and bright. After looking at it for a while, he put it on his chest again and put it close to his skin. Shen Qingxuan snorted, “Are you jealous now ?" He even laughed at what he said. He couldn’t explain his relationship with Yi Mo, but he knew that Yi Mo would never be jealous of him. That person wanted to cultivate to become an immortal. He wanted to purify his six senses.

He had cultivated for thousands of years and was free from desire and emotion. He had gradually come to know these things.

In the past, he thought Yi Mo hated him and that every time he had sex with him he was doing him a favor. In fact, Shen Qingxuan also understood from the cream he received on his birthday that Yi Mo did not hate having sex with him , otherwise he would not have given him that thing as a birthday gift. Therefore, Yi Mo did not hate him and even had a good impression of him.

Otherwise, she wouldn’t always agree to his requests, even though his requests were trivial to the snake demon, such as suddenly saying that he wanted to eat wontons from Dongcheng the next morning after sleeping at night. Of course, this was just a good impression, and she could only say that she had a good impression of him. It had nothing to do with personal feelings, so naturally she didn’t like him.

Shen Qingxuan even wanted to ask Yi Mo whether he had ever fallen in love with anyone in his thousand years of life.

Of course, he wouldn’t ask at this time. Some questions can only be answered when asked at the right time. Shen Qingxuan has understood this truth since he was a child.

Why did Yi Mo suddenly disappear without any warning this time?

Shen Qingxuan thought that when he woke up he would see something like a longevity lock next to his pillow.

As he was putting on his clothes, his heart began to beat wildly for no reason.

Maybe something delayed him? Shen Qingxuan thought, and he comforted himself, and soon he was back to normal. But he felt a haze in his heart, as if something was going to happen, and it felt ominous.

Did something happen to Yi Mo? Once this thought came to mind, Shen Qingxuan couldn’t stop it. He took a deep breath and thought about it. All of it was worry and concern.

Shen Qingxuan took his servants back to the mountain villa. His sudden decision surprised the Shen family. Shen’s mother persuaded him to stay because Xiaotao was pregnant and it was inconvenient for her to ride on the bumpy mountain road. However, Shen Qingxuan was determined to leave and leave Xiaotao behind without taking her.

No one could change his decision, and in the afternoon, Shen Qingxuan returned to the mountains.

Xu Mingshi also said that the mountain was a good place to go and wanted to go with us.

Shen Qingxuan was worried that something might happen to Yi Mo, so he took Xu Mingshi with him, thinking that he had some skills and could help if something really happened.

A group of people returned to the villa which had been silent for many days, and it suddenly became lively.

Shen Qingxuan did not show any clues. After returning to the courtyard, he did as usual. He had people trim the flowers and plants in the garden, wiped off the rain stains on the decorations in the courtyard , arranged Xu Mingshi’s residence, and then had dinner.

It was not until night that I could sit alone in the house, clutching the red bead, sitting by the candlelight .

He didn’t know how long he sat there, but the person he was waiting for didn’t come. Shen Qingxuan felt his limbs getting colder and colder . He had no other thoughts and only whispered to the red bead in a trance : “If you have any problems, come to me. I have no special skills, only a body. If necessary, I can block some swords for you." Having said this, his heart was already filled with sadness. He couldn’t imagine the day without Yi Mo.

I dared not even think about it. As soon as the thought crossed my mind, my chest would suddenly feel as if it had been stabbed by a sharp weapon. I felt cold and painful, and even my bone marrow seemed to have been eroded.

Shen Qingxuan realized this and understood that this love could never be cut off. With his current heartless and calculating black heart, he was willing to live and die for others . I don’t know when that love became so deeply rooted.

“Yi Mo."

Shen Qingxuan shouted to the air.

“Come earlier," he said. He lowered his head, then raised it again. After a thousand words, he condensed them into four words. He murmured , as if talking to himself, and said softly:

“I miss you."

I miss you, Shen Qingxuan said.

No other sweet words came out of his mouth. Just these four words seemed to exhaust his lifelong love.