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　　將銀兩放在破舊的木桌上，伊墨將角落裡剛剛買下的孩子抱起，就要離開。身後的婦人孱弱地叫了一聲，望著他懷裡那個癡呆呆的幼子，垂淚道：“請好生待他。”
　　伊墨沒有說話，只點了點頭，這種時候再說這樣的話實在是亡羊補牢。既然已經決定將親子相賣，好不好，就該與她無關了。
　　伊墨抱著小柳延走出去，很快消失在門後。
　　柳家夫婦怔望著敞開的木門，想到骨肉就此分離，也不禁悲從中來，抱頭痛哭。哭了一陣，還是男人先擦了淚痕，安撫著婦人啞聲道：“人人都說，這孩子命中帶煞，所以才有家中今日境況，現今我們也養不了他，有人願意帶他走，是他的命數，或許也是你我命數。莫傷心了。”
　　婦人依舊啼哭不休，良久才拭淚道：“罷了。”口中說著，眼神還癡癡望著門外已經沒有身影的道路，到底是身上掉下的一塊肉，若家境不至如此困窘，再癡傻也不會交給他人。
　　從此，就算別離了。
　　
　　伊墨帶著柳延，很快就離那茅草泥牆的房屋越來越遠，一直安安靜靜的柳延卻在他懷裡有了動作，瘦弱的身子擰過去，透過他的肩，一直望著愈來愈遠的房屋。眼皮一眨不眨，天生的癡傻，卻死死地盯著那住了四年的屋子，仿佛在呼喚屋內的兩人。伊墨察覺了他的動作，腳下停住，隨他一同看著那間茅屋。
　　伊墨問：“不想走？”
　　柳延到今天都不會說話，也仿佛從來聽不懂別人說什麼，對他的問話，自然也沒有反應，呆呆看著那間遠去的屋子，執拗地保持著一個觀望的姿勢。
　　伊墨見他如此，只好打量了一下四周，隨後將懷裡孩子的臉掰過來，指著不遠處一道山嶺道：“我們住那裡，你站在山上就能看得到它。他們將你給了我，往後，你就回不去了。”
　　柳延卻沒有順著他指的方向看去，而是低頭遲鈍地看著他的手指，許久，柳延伸手，瘦如雞爪的小手攥住伊墨的食指，捏得緊緊的。
　　伊墨以為他聽懂了，心裡歡喜了一下，只一下，這點歡喜就退潮似地不見了。只見小柳延抓著他的手指，塞進了嘴裡。
　　餓了。
　　伊墨歎了口氣，也不知道這人的一魂一魄到底遺失到哪裡去了。同時也慶倖，若不是少了一魂一魄，只怕現今他要守著一隻不知道怎樣的動物。
　　將小孩重新在懷裡安置好，伊墨施法，朝那座山巒快速飛去。
　　柳延甚至不會掙扎，只在他懷中撇著頭，望著越來越遠，越來越遠，最後只剩下米粒大小的茅屋。
　　即使被嫌棄過被咒駡過，也還給過他有限溫暖的地方。
　　
　　杳無人煙的山峰上，樹木倒塌，平地而起一座小院，置了三間房，一間伙房，兩間住房，窗門簇新。院中天井，長出不少翠竹，院門外林木繁多，花朵茂盛。透過矮牆低欄，一眼就能看見仿佛天堂的美景。
　　柳延蹲在地上看螞蟻搬家，看燕雀低飛，偶爾也會站起來，透過密匝匝的林木，望著遠遠的地方，那米粒大小的小屋。
　　夏季山林多雨，他看上一會，天空就陰了，接著就掉下碩大雨滴，往往雨水還沒砸到他臉上，他就被人抱起，帶進了屋。
　　屋裡有暗香浮動，屋外雨聲淅瀝。
　　
　　柳延坐在男人對面，張著嘴，慢吞吞地吃著飯，他癡傻的夠嗆，吃飯也會左邊漏一點，右邊滴一些，讓他自己吃，通常掉在地上的食物比進到肚子裡的多。
　　剛來山上時，不下雨的傍晚，伊墨會讓他在院子裡吃飯，自己吃。往往還沒吃一會，灑落的米飯就引來了一群雀鳥，謹慎地觀望一陣後各個都沖上去圍著他的碗，囂張大膽地在他碗裡啄食。柳延也不會趕，在眾鳥的嘴下，吃自己越來越少的食物。
　　伊墨只好親自動手餵食。
　　柳延坐在他對面，目光看著他的臉，偶爾也會緩緩移到嘴邊的筷子上，吃上一會，看著桌上那盤魚，隨後理所當然地張嘴，等伊墨挑出魚臉上的櫻桃肉，喂進自己嘴裡。緩緩嚼著魚肉，柳延低頭擺弄著手上一根尾巴草，毛茸茸的茅草像一隻小動物的尾巴，柳延咽下魚肉後，在伊墨的筷子又送來時，將尾巴草舉著，搔上了伊墨的臉。
　　搔了搔，伊墨沒反應。柳延又搔，搔他的脖子，伊墨放下筷子，道：“不癢。”
　　柳延聽了也沒反應，仍是鍥而不捨地搔著，伊墨也端坐在那，仍由一根尾巴草在自己臉上四處搔走。柔柔軟軟，細細密密的絨毛，在他臉頰、額頭、鼻樑、耳畔滑過，眼前是一雙大而圓，卻無神且無邪的眼。
　　等飯菜都涼透，柳延才放下草，就此甘休。伊墨將飯菜重新熱過，繼續喂。
　　
　　屋裡暗香浮動，屋外雨聲淅瀝，光華暗轉。
　　已經十一歲的柳延白白淨淨，孩童的稚氣逐漸褪去，眉目清朗起來，逐漸有了曾經的影子，只是呆傻著，目光依然遲鈍，曾經的鋒芒一絲都無有。伊墨注視他的時間漸漸長了起來，似乎迫切的，想從那臉上尋回些什麼。
　　沈玨離了人間利祿，也來到了山上，在另外一間屋子住下，每日幫忙做些家務，其餘時間就陪著柳延和伊墨。
　　夏日炎熱，山林清爽些，卻也依然讓人感到熱，這日午間吃了飯，沈玨無事可做，便去了林子裡打盹，他化了原形，是一隻巨大的黑狼，趴在草木間閉著眼安睡。直到悉悉索索的腳步聲傳來，沈玨睜開眼，第一眼望見的便是隔著灌木叢，一動不動望著自己的柳延。
　　柳延看著那只巨大的黑狼，渾身皮毛在樹葉間隙漏下的光線裡泛著油光。威風凜凜。
　　沈玨一時呆住，站了起來，也忘了化回人形，身形巨大的黑影幾乎罩住了弱小的少年。
　　柳延對著狼眼，看了許久，向來沉默無語的嘴唇動了動，喚出一個名字來：伊墨。
　　這是他第一次開口說話。儘管這幾年，伊墨一直在教他說話認字，卻沒有任何結果。柳延始終沉默，仿佛不僅傻，還是啞巴。
　　
　　伊墨聞聲趕來，見到的便是一人一狼傻乎乎對峙的場面，似乎都束手無策，慌亂的不知道該怎樣才好。伊墨只好救場，他一把將站著的柳延抱起，又上前踹了黑狼一腳，甚是無奈地道：“還不變回來！”
　　沈玨這才回過神，化了人形，急忙忙沖著伊墨懷裡呆呆的少年解釋：“那是我，”又道：“我就是狼，”還說：“我是人，也是狼……”
　　他笨口拙舌的模樣，讓柳延看了許久，直到怎麼解釋也解釋不清，亂七八糟的實在不成樣子了，柳延才慢吞吞的從伊墨懷裡掙開，伸出手，踮起腳尖，揉了揉沈玨的頭。這動作，通常是伊墨做給他的，代表安撫。
　　沈玨頓時像被施了術法似的，怔在當場，呆若木雞。
　　柳延又看了沈玨許久，才轉過身，抬頭對上伊墨的眼，好半晌，才勉強又說出一個字：變。
　　他剛會說話，口齒不清，伊墨思索良久才知道他的意思。指了指自己，又指向石化的沈玨，伊墨問他：“是讓我和他一樣變？”
　　柳延點了點頭。
　　沈玨這時才清醒過來，連忙喊道：“會嚇著他的。”
　　伊墨望著那雙幾年來都沒有變化的眼睛，呆滯又無邪，想了想就變回了原形，碗口粗的一條黑蛇，腹部金黃，盤踞在地，豎著半身，一雙蛇眼盯著柳延。
　　柳延歪過頭，望著它半天都沒有反應，不知道是嚇傻了還是根本就沒嚇到。
　　一隻山雀從樹枝間跳過，留下清脆一聲鳥鳴，飛到另一棵樹上去了。柳延這才遲鈍地伸出手，摁住了那蛇頭，又徐徐摸向蛇身，冰冷的鱗甲從他掌心一劃而過，柳延再次開口，道：“伊墨。”
　　說完，抬起頭，指著前方高大的果樹，指著掛滿枝頭的紅果，道：“吃。”
　　他剛說完，盤踞在地上的蛇伸出蛇尾，一把卷住了他，一人一蛇再出現時，已經坐在了樹梢上。
　　伊墨回到人形，伸臂摘了兩顆果子，放進他手裡問：“夠了？”
　　柳延不再說話，或許是嫌說話廢力，坐在他腿上哢嚓哢嚓咬果子。
　　沈玨站在樹下，翹首看了半天，終於忍不住，大聲問樹上的伊墨：“他到底是傻還是不傻？”
　　伊墨想了半天，看了看啃果子啃得汁水橫流的柳延，替他擦了擦，道：“或許只是遲鈍。”
　　呆呆的柳延啃著果子，完全不知道他們在說什麼。
　　
　　晚間沐浴，柳延坐在木桶裡，拍打著水花。伊墨走過去時，一桶水幾乎被他玩掉了半桶，重新加滿了水，伊墨問他：“你真傻了嗎？”
　　柳延啪啪地打著水花，見他來了，將水花擊打的更是飛濺，最後濺了伊墨一臉。柳延生來就不會笑，看到伊墨一臉水痕，也露不出笑容，只是手下笨笨地拍著，讓水花越濺越多，將蹲在木桶旁的伊墨從頭到尾全部打濕。
　　等他玩夠了，伊墨再次注滿水，取過皂莢給他揉洗長髮時，柳延才緩緩吐了一句：“水……蛇。”說著自己沉進了木桶裡，然後“嘩”地一下站起來，無一根棉絲的身子上嘩嘩地滾下一灘水，順便，又給伊墨淋了一頭。
　　伊墨又將他扯回去，一聲不吭地繼續洗，面上始終淡然，直到洗完了，給少年套上衣袍，伊墨才道：“你至多也就是個水鬼。”說著一揮袖，水桶飛出敞開的屋門，將滿桶水傾倒進了院子裡。
　　做完事，剛準備熄燈，房門被叩響了，沈玨在外面道：“父親。”
　　伊墨開了門，問何事，沈玨背著包袱，說要離開。
　　床榻上柳延坐起來，揭開床幃，望著他們說話。
　　伊墨自然知道他要去做什麼，想了想道：“去吧。”
　　沈玨說：“我道行淺，這些年也荒廢了修煉，所以不知道去哪裡尋。父親可知道他在哪裡？”
　　伊墨垂下眼，眼底似乎閃過什麼，很快道：“我只見過他一面，你該知道，帝王都非凡人。我如何能算得到？”又說：“找不到，就別找了。該你遇上，自然會遇上。”
　　沈玨敏銳地從他的話裡感覺到了什麼，等了等才道：“我答應他尋一世。既說了就要做到，尋到了，他要不認我，也就罷了。”
　　伊墨說：“就罷了？”
　　“是，”沈玨道：“原本……我與他就是兩種人，他是帝王，我是狼妖，本是涇渭分明……雖然在一起幾十年，卻也說不上有多好，所以，尋到了他不認，我就罷了。當初，也是這樣說好的。”
　　想了許久，伊墨道：“那你就去找吧。”
　　沈玨問：“去哪裡找？”
　　“我確實算不出來。”伊墨說。
　　沈玨歎了口氣，道：“那孩兒就慢慢找吧。”總會找到的。沈玨想，反正他半人半妖，邊找邊修行，也還能活許多許多年，不怕找不到。
　　沈玨離去了。
　　伊墨關好門，走到窗邊，望著那個呆呆的少年，突然想說話，想說，於是就說了。
　　伊墨道：“人間是找不到的。”他對傻子柳延說，那帝王本是上神，下凡來一趟，曆轉一番就回去了，沈玨在人間如何找，一定也是找不到的。就算找到了又怎麼樣，那是神，無欲無求，哪裡會為一個小狼妖舍了尊貴。
　　說著伊墨抬手，撫了撫柳延的頭，低低道：“我倒也不擔心他，你當年教得好，所以他不會像我這樣……”
　　說到這裡，卻猛地頓住了，這樣什麼呢？這樣看不透，還是這樣死不甘休？伊墨不知道，該怎麼說下去。
　　將少年瘦弱的身子抱進懷裡，伊墨擁他許久，才仿佛喃喃自語般，歎了一句：“沈清軒，我覺得累了。”
　　
　　這一世，伊墨也覺得無望的很，不知道該怎麼形容，心中寥落如雜草叢生。他縱然是無情無欲的妖，也有了情與欲，一旦沾染了這些，再想清心就難了，或許可以重找一處靈山，沉睡幾百年，靜下心來再繼續修煉。可是……又不甘。
　　始終不甘。
　　正茫然間，懷中柳延卻動了一下，伸出手來，撫著他的後背，見並無反應，又抬起身，捧了他的臉，認認真真地在他臉上親了又親。
　　伊墨愣了一下，看他的眼，卻觀察不出一絲情愛來。胸腔裡微熱起來的部分，又緩緩冷了下去。
　　柳延說：“伊墨。”
　　接下來的話，卻不會說。傻子就是傻子，怎麼開脫都是傻子，連安慰都不會，只會呆呆叫他的名字。
　　柳延喚：“伊墨。”
　　又喊：“伊墨。”
　　一聲接著一聲：“伊墨。”
　　仿佛除了這兩個字，別的什麼都不是。
　　
　　伊墨抱緊了他，許久才道：“睡吧。”
　　柳延作息規律，今夜算是熬得晚了，聽他這麼說，很快合上眼，沒心沒肺的睡著了。

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Putting the silver on the worn wooden table, Yi Mo picked up the child he had just bought in the corner and was about to leave. The woman behind him called out weakly, looking at the stupid little child in his arms , shedding tears and said, “Please treat him well."

Yi Mo didn’t say anything, just nodded. It would be too late to say such things at this time. Since they had already decided to sell their children, it should have nothing to do with her.

Yi Mo walked out holding little Liu Yan and soon disappeared behind the door.

The Liu couple stared at the open wooden door, thinking of the separation of their flesh and blood, they couldn’t help but burst into tears. After crying for a while, the man wiped his tears first and comforted the woman, saying in a hoarse voice: “Everyone says that this child is born with bad luck, which is why our family is in this situation. Now we can’t support him. Someone is willing to take him away. It’s his fate, and maybe it’s our fate too. Don’t be sad."

The woman continued to cry, and after a long time she wiped her tears and said, “Forget it." As she spoke, her eyes were still staring blankly at the road outside the door where there was no figure. After all, it was a piece of flesh that had fallen from her body. If her family’s financial situation was not so difficult, she would not give it to others no matter how stupid she was.

From now on, we will be separated.

Yi Mo led Liu Yan and they soon moved farther and farther away from the thatched mud house. Liu Yan, who had been quiet all this time, moved in his arms. His thin body twisted over and looked through his shoulder at the house that was getting farther and farther away. He did n’t blink, and he was born stupid, but he stared at the house where he had lived for four years, as if calling the two people in the house. Yi Mo noticed his movement, stopped, and looked at the thatched house with him.

Yi Mo asked: “Don’t want to leave?"

Liu Yan still can’t speak to this day, and it seems that he never understands what others say. Naturally, he didn’t respond to his questions. He stared blankly at the receding house, stubbornly maintaining a wait-and-see posture.

Seeing him like this, Yi Mo looked around, then turned the face of the child in her arms over , pointed to a mountain not far away and said: “We live there, you can see it when you stand on the mountain. They gave you to me, and from now on, you can’t go back."

However, Liu Yan did not look in the direction he pointed, but lowered his head and looked at his fingers dully. After a long time, Liu Yan stretched out his hand, and his skinny little hand as thin as a chicken claw grasped Yi Mo’s index finger, squeezing it tightly.

Yi Mo thought he understood, and was happy for a moment, but then the joy disappeared like the tide. Xiao Liuyan grabbed his finger and put it in his mouth.

I’m hungry.

Yi Mo sighed, not knowing where this man’s soul and spirit had gone. At the same time, he was also thankful, because if he hadn’t lost his soul and spirit , he would probably be guarding an unknown animal now.

After putting the child back in his arms, Yi Mo cast a spell and flew quickly towards the mountain.

Liu Yan didn’t even struggle. He just tilted his head in his arms, looking farther and farther away, until only a thatched hut the size of a grain of rice was left.

Even though he had been despised and cursed, there was still a place where he had been given limited warmth.

On the uninhabited mountain, trees fell down and a small courtyard rose from the ground. There were three rooms, one kitchen and two living rooms, with brand new windows and doors. There were many green bamboos growing in the courtyard. Outside the gate, there were many trees and lush flowers. Through the low walls and fences, you could see a beautiful scenery that seemed like heaven.

Liu Yan squatted on the ground watching the ants moving and the swallows flying low. Occasionally, he would stand up and look through the dense forest at the small rice-grain-sized house in the distance.

It rains a lot in the mountains in summer. He looked for a while, and then the sky became cloudy, and then huge raindrops fell. Often, before the rain hit his face, he was picked up and brought into the house.

There was a faint fragrance in the house and the sound of rain outside.

Liu Yan sat opposite the man, opening his mouth and eating slowly. He was extremely stupid and when he ate, some food would leak out on the left and drip on the right. If he was left to eat by himself, usually more food would fall on the ground than go into his stomach.

When he first came to the mountain, Yi Mo would let him eat in the yard on evenings when it was not raining. Often before he had finished eating for a while, the spilled rice would attract a flock of birds, which would watch cautiously for a while before rushing over to surround his bowl and peck at it arrogantly and boldly. Liu Yan would not chase them away, and he would eat his increasingly scarce food under the mouths of the birds.

Yi Mo had no choice but to feed him himself.

Liu Yan sat opposite him, looking at his face, and occasionally slowly moved his eyes to the chopsticks near his mouth, eating for a while, looking at the plate of fish on the table, and then naturally opened his mouth, waiting for Yi Mo to pick out the cherry meat on the fish face and feed it into his mouth. Slowly chewing the fish meat, Liu Yan lowered his head and fiddled with a tail grass in his hand. The furry thatch looked like the tail of a small animal. After Liu Yan swallowed the fish meat, when Yi Mo’s chopsticks came again, he raised the tail grass and scratched Yi Mo’s face.

After scratching, Yi Mo did not respond. Liu Yan scratched his neck again. Yi Mo put down his chopsticks and said, “It doesn’t itch."

Liu Yan didn’t respond, but continued to scratch his face. Yi Mo also sat there, still scratching his face with a piece of grass. The soft , dense hairs slid across his cheeks, forehead, nose, and ears. In front of him were a pair of large, round, but lifeless and innocent eyes.

When the food was completely cold, Liu Yan put down the grass and stopped. Yi Mo reheated the food and continued feeding him.

There was a faint fragrance in the room, the sound of rain was heard outside, and the light was dimming.

Liu Yan, who was already eleven years old, was fair and clean-skinned. His childishness gradually faded away, his features became clearer, and he gradually regained his former self, but he was just dumb , his eyes were still dull, and there was no trace of his former sharpness. Yi Mo stared at him for a longer and longer time, as if he was eager to find something from his face.

Shen Jue left the worldly fame and fortune and came to the mountain, living in another house. He helped with the housework every day and spent the rest of his time with Liu Yan and Yi Mo.

The summer was hot, and the forest was cooler, but it still made people feel hot. After lunch that day, Shen Jue had nothing to do, so he went to the forest to take a nap . He changed into his original form, a huge black wolf, lying among the grass and trees with his eyes closed and sleeping. Until the sound of footsteps came, Shen Jue opened his eyes, and the first thing he saw was Liu Yan, who was staring at him motionlessly through the bushes.

Liu Yan looked at the huge black wolf, its fur glistening in the light filtering through the leaves. It looked majestic and imposing.

Shen Jue was stunned for a moment, stood up, and forgot to change back into human form . The huge black shadow almost covered the weak boy.

Liu Yan stared into the wolf’s eyes for a long time, and his usually silent lips moved, calling out a name: Yi Mo.

This was the first time he spoke. Although Yi Mo had been teaching him to speak and read over the past few years, there was no result. Liu Yan remained silent, as if he was not only stupid but also dumb.

Yi Mo rushed over after hearing the noise, and saw a man and a wolf facing each other stupidly, neither of them seemed to be able to do anything, panicking and not knowing what to do. Yi Mo had to save the situation, he picked up Liu Yan who was standing, and kicked the black wolf, saying helplessly: “Why don’t you change back!"

Shen Jue finally came to his senses, transformed into a human form, and hurriedly explained to the dazed boy in Yi Mo’s arms: “That was me," and then said: “I am the wolf," and also said: “I am a human, and also a wolf…"

Liu Yan watched him for a long time, until he could not explain it clearly, and it was too messy to explain. Liu Yan slowly broke away from Yi Mo’s arms, stretched out his hand, stood on tiptoe, and rubbed Shen Jue’s head. This action was usually done by Yi Mo to comfort him.

Shen Jue suddenly seemed to be under a spell , and stood there in a daze, dumbfounded.

Liu Yan looked at Shen Jue for a long time before turning around and looking up at Yi Mo’s eyes. After a long while, he reluctantly uttered one word: change.

He just learned to speak, and his speech was unclear. Yi Mo thought for a long time before he understood what he meant. Pointing at himself, then at the petrified Shen Jue, Yi Mo asked him: “Do you want me to change like him?"

Liu Yan nodded.

Shen Jue finally came to his senses and quickly shouted, “It will scare him."

Yi Mo looked at the pair of eyes that had not changed in the past few years, dull and innocent. After thinking about it, he changed back to his original form, a black snake as thick as a bowl, with a golden belly, coiled on the ground, half of its body upright, staring at Liu Yan with a pair of snake eyes.

Liu Yan tilted his head and stared at it for a long time without any reaction. He didn’t know whether he was scared silly or not scared at all .

A tit jumped from the branches, leaving behind a crisp bird song, and flew to another tree. Liu Yan then slowly reached out his hand, pressed the snake’s head, and slowly touched the snake’s body. The cold scales passed through his palm , and Liu Yan spoke again, “Yi Mo."

After saying that, he raised his head, pointed at the tall fruit tree in front of him, pointed at the red fruits hanging on the branches, and said, “Eat."

As soon as he finished speaking, the snake coiled on the ground stretched out its tail and wrapped around him. When the man and the snake reappeared , they were already sitting on the treetop.

Yi Mo returned to his human form, stretched out his arms, picked two fruits, put them in his hands and asked, “Is that enough?"

Liu Yan stopped talking, perhaps because he felt talking was a waste of energy, and sat on his lap, crunching the fruit.

Shen Jue stood under the tree, looking up for a long time, and finally couldn’t help but asked Yi Mo in the tree loudly: “Is he stupid or not?"

Yi Mo thought for a long time, looked at Liu Yan who was chewing the fruit until the juice flowed out, wiped it for him, and said, “Maybe he’s just slow."

Liu Yan was chewing fruit in a daze, having no idea what they were talking about.

Taking a bath in the evening, Liu Yan sat in the wooden tub, splashing water. When Yi Mo walked over, he had almost used up half of the bucket of water. After refilling it, Yi Mo asked him, “Are you really stupid?"

Liu Yan splashed the water, and when he saw him coming, he splashed the water even more, finally splashing Yi Mo’s face. Liu Yan was born unable to smile, and when he saw Yi Mo’s face full of water marks, he couldn’t smile either. He just slapped his hands clumsily, making the water splash more and more, and completely soaking Yi Mo, who was squatting next to the wooden barrel, from head to toe.

When he had enough fun, Yi Mo filled the bucket with water again and took some soapberries to rub and wash his long hair. Then Liu Yan slowly said, “Water…snake." As he spoke, he sank into the barrel, then stood up with a “whoosh". A pool of water rolled down his silky body , and by the way, he poured water all over Yi Mo’s head.

Yi Mo pulled him back and continued washing in silence, with a calm expression all the time. After he finished washing and put the robe on the boy, Yi Mo said, “You are just a water ghost at most." With a wave of his sleeves, the bucket flew out of the open door and poured the full bucket of water into the yard.

After finishing his work and preparing to turn off the lights, there was a knock on the door. Shen Jue said from outside, “Father."

Yi Mo opened the door and asked what was going on. Shen Jue came with his bag on his back and said he was leaving.

Liu Yan sat up on the bed, opened the bed curtain, and looked at them while talking.

Yi Mo naturally knew what he was going to do, and after thinking for a while, he said, “Go."

Shen Jue said, “I am not very experienced in Taoism and I have neglected my cultivation over the years, so I don’t know where to look for him. Father, do you know where he is?"

Yi Mo lowered his eyes, something seemed to flash through his eyes, and he quickly said: “I have only met him once. You should know that emperors are not ordinary people. How can I predict it?" He added: “If you can’t find it, don’t look for it. When it’s time for you to meet him, you will meet him naturally."

Shen Jue keenly sensed something from his words, and after a while he said, “I promised him that I would look for him in this lifetime. Since I said so, I must do it. If he doesn’t recognize me after I find him, that’s fine."

Yi Mo said: “That’s it?"

“Yes," Shen Jue said, “Originally… he and I are two different kinds of people. He is the emperor, and I am a wolf demon. The difference is clear… Although we have been together for decades, we can’t say that we are that good. So, if he doesn’t recognize me after I find him, I’ll just let it go. That’s what we agreed on at the beginning."

After thinking for a long time, Yi Mo said, “Then go find it."

Shen Jue asked: “Where to find it?"

“I really can’t figure it out." Yi Mo said.

Shen Jue sighed and said, “Then let’s search slowly." He will find it eventually. Shen Jue thought, since he is half human and half demon, he can practice while searching, and he can live for many, many years, so he is not afraid of not finding it.

Shen Jue left.

Yi Mo closed the door, walked to the window, looked at the dazed boy, and suddenly wanted to speak, so he said it.

Yi Mo said, “You can’t find it in the human world." He told the fool Liu Yan that the emperor was originally a god, who came down to the human world, and returned after a journey . Shen Jue would not be able to find it no matter how hard he tried. Even if he found it, it would be useless. He was a god, without desires or requests, so how could he give up his dignity for a little wolf demon?

Yi Mo raised his hand and stroked Liu Yan’s head, saying softly: “I’m not worried about him. You taught him well back then, so he won’t be like me…"

At this point, he suddenly paused. What was going on? Was he still unable to see through it, or was he still unwilling to give up? Yi Mo didn’t know how to continue.

Holding the boy’s thin body in his arms, Yi Mo held him for a long time before he sighed as if mumbling to himself: “Shen Qingxuan, I feel tired."

In this life, Yi Mo also felt hopeless. He didn’t know how to describe it. His heart was as lonely as weeds. Even though he was a heartless demon, he also had emotions and desires. Once he was contaminated by these, it would be difficult to clear his mind. Maybe he could find a sacred mountain again, sleep for hundreds of years, calm down and continue to practice. But… he was unwilling to do so.

Never give up.

Just as he was at a loss, Liu Yan in his arms moved, reached out his hand, and stroked his back. Seeing no reaction, he raised his body, held his face, and kissed him earnestly on the face again and again.

Yi Mo was stunned for a moment, looking into his eyes, but could not detect a trace of love. The part of his chest that had been slightly warmed up slowly cooled down again.

Liu Yan said: “Yi Mo."

The next words, however, could not be said. A fool is a fool, no matter how he excuses himself, he is still a fool, he can’t even comfort him, he can only call his name stupidly.

Liu Yan called out: “Yi Mo."

Then he called out, “Yi Mo."

One after another: “Yi Mo."

It seems that apart from these two words, there is nothing else.

Yi Mo hugged him tightly, and said after a long time: “Go to sleep."

Liu Yan had a regular sleep and rest schedule, and he stayed up late tonight. After hearing what he said, he quickly closed his eyes and fell asleep heartlessly.